Meeting with Vivian Chow

Wow... you know what? I met Vivian Chow yesterday, probably most of you don't really know who Vivian is, she's always my goddness. When I was studying primary school, I went to Sino Plaza to buy her photos, I know all of her songs. She's probably one of the FITTEST and PRETTIEST women I have ever encountered. She's just so sweet, OMG, you know, she came and said hello and had handshake with me, and of course we took picture together, and all were driven by she. Wow, wasn't it great? OMG... I really really wanna watch her concert, OMG, I don't wanna wash my hand, haha, wow...

I know it sounds a bit strange, but I keep on thinking about her, wow, she's gorgeous anyway, OMG... how can she be so fit even she's nearly 40? Yes, she's nearly 40. You know, I always fancy someone who are older than me... wow...

Vivian Chow, Vivian Chow, Vivian Chow... wow wow wow...

A letter

Below is the writing that was written when I was 15, I found it's quite interesting.

My world is so dark without your hug, I missed the connection between you and me. Lying alone on the bed, missing your breathe and touch, my heart is sinking. How are you? Where are you now? My tear has run out, my soul has been taken, losing you is a fact, nothing can be done.

"Goodbye and take care", your flawless complexion, with your flawless red long dress, every shot was so close but so far, so untouchable, your train was leaving, you became smaller and smaller, what I can see was the steam from the train. You haven't left a word saying where you were going, so sudden, you left.

The phone rang, it was a rainy night, I roared and cried at the same time when heard that news. I ran out to the street with my car's key, jumping on my car and pressing the accelerator to the limit. My heart was pumping very fast, I had no idea whether the rain or tear blocked my sight, I had no idea on what's going on, it's all so suden.

I was holding your hand, you were beautiful, I could see your smiling face, I wished I could wake you up. Your lips were as soft as before, you were so perfect. Everything became memory now. Without you, everything bacame meaningless, my soul has been taken at the time when you passed, I miss you.

You will always in my heart, we shall re-unite one day.

Nothing

In the past 4 days, I have been thinking and re-thinking a lot of issues, and of course taking good rest. It's the right time to take a break from my work and everything. The coming month will be a very tough month, I don't know whether I can get through it or not, not sure if I am tough enough to overcome all the difficulties, I am not sure, of course I will try my best, not to disappoint all those who support and care about me.

As I have already made the decision, I should take up the responsibility to accomplish what I promised. Of course, be prepared to pack my stuff and leave. Dalai Lama once said " You should work as hard as you can to reduce suffering and foster justice - accepting that all your efforts may come to nothing in the end" Haha, yes, once decided, should try the best to accomplish one's goal, no matter what the outcome is.

I will keep all of you updated.

Broken

Don't wanna think anything now, anyway I lost the battle, a total defeat.

A fiasco

Nearly 3 years, what do I get now? Nothing. I would rather to have nothing than FIASCO. A total loss of my career, a big crisis.

What can I do? Nothing. No one can help. I hate being like that. Fuck

My Decision

Dear All,

Finally I have made the decision, last MONTH. But I am not happy with this decision :-(

Ming

My fault

Um... I know I was an absolute arsehole to my best friend last Friday night, if I were him, I would have the same reaction as him now, I would be extremely angry as well, I know.

3 days ago, we were still having dinner, having very good chat, watching tv, chilling out together, and now, everything changed, yes, I regret, but it's too late.

I am sorry

My Mind

Seem my emotion fluctuate alot these days, I feel happy easily and feel sad easily, I am having kind of unstable emotion in some ways, and hardly for me to control as well. I get angry easily, get pissed off easily, get depressed easily, get upset easily.

Anything which is not good can affect my emotion, I have very hot temper these days, I feel dizzy easily, I feel helpless easily, I know the reason, but that's something out of my control. I don't really wanna talk about that, that's been bothering me for 6 months, that's the consequence of a stupid decision, a wrong decision.

I have been nice to people always and seem most of them are taking advantages from me, sound to me that being nice is something bad, something people will think that's your weakness, seem being civilized and patient won't be appreciated but rather that's a killing point of oneself. Am I living in a wrong planet? Or people really expect others to be harsh and mean? I don't know...

My 26th Birthday Party

First of all, thank you for those who came to my party and it broke a new record, 21 friends showed up (17 last year), Shaun, Anders, Roy, Brenden, Rob, Charlie, Janice, Sandra, Pinky, Joyce, Sun, Fan, Cristo, Chris, Sally, Gabe, Tak, Golden flower, Venus, Evita, Gladys (not in order of importance).

It's a great night, there were around 3 bottles of rum, 2 bottles of whiskey, 2 bottles of red wine, 1/3 bottle of tequila, 50 cans of beer... anyway, there were a lot of alcohols.

We had the party at Shaun's, starting from 2030. The format was more or less the same as last year, no game, everyone sat down on the floor and chatted together, taking pictures, laughing, drinking, everyone having fun, very relaxing. To be honest, I can't really recall what's happened last night, when I woke up, I was on my own bed with a lot of questions, didn't know what time did the people leave, didn't know if they said goodbye, didn't know a lot of things, there are so many gaps need to be filled by the above 21 people.

Anyway, I have had a wonderful night, very happy, I hope all of you enjoyed that too. Thanks Shaun for letting me to hold the party again at his flat, thanks for those who came to my party, thanks for those who let me kissed and touched, thank you everyone, let's see all of you again on my 27 years old birthday party.

Story of a Pervert

A friend told me this story,

He was in Shanghai and having quite a lot of drinks in a party, he drank quite a lot and then he went to a club to drink and dance again. He didn't need to pay a penny for the drinks. When he walked out of that club, he decided to go back to hotel...

Outside the hotel entrance, he met a guy and asked him if he wanted a girl, he asked how much and he followed that guy to a club. The club was ok, looked like an ordinary karaoke club. He sat down and he ordered a can of coke. The coke should cost RMB 52, acccording to what he told me.

He sat inside the room, then a girl came in and asking if he's ok, probably he noticed there was something wrong with the club, he stepped out the room, then a bouncer pushed him and asked him for RMB 500, he paid then left.

He was quite pissed off, then he found a police on the street and sent them to the club, and the argument started, he shouted at both the police and the boss of the club, saying

1) "What the fxxk they changed me 500 for just a can of coke"

2) "You, Shanghaiese , ripped off tourist like this?"

3) "500 is nothing to me, look at my jacket and shoes, and you should know"

4) "How much do you earn every month? Can you afford to pay 500 to drink a can of coke?"

5) "That just doesn't make any sense that a caoke cost 500"

6) "I am going to spread this horrible news to all the media in Hong Kong, as Shanghain is such a horrible place for tourist"

At last, my friend got his 500 back and he ordered the police to send him back to hotel as well. What's a brute.

After listened to his story, I warned him not to go back to Shanghai in at least 3 months. What's a stupid guy.