Moral

What's the norm of moral standard? How do we define the norm? Who's got the authority to define the norm? I doubt.

I have been bought up in a decent and moral environment, but does it mean I am very moral? I will say I am decent and moral, but not as decent and moral as others. It sounds a bit controversial, yes, I will say, when something is destined to happen, it happens, on one can stop and nothing can be stopped.

A lot of studies saying that men think of sex in every 2 minutes, it's absolutely true, when we talk, we try to relate the topic to sex, when we talk about sex, we tend to be more happy, so why do we need to suppress our feeling? Like one of my mates like discussing "rape" all the time, we know he hasn't attempted before (maybe, who knows), but he's still decent and righteous somehow.

So, what's immoral? Cheating? I don't know. Prostitution? It's kind of business transaction. If anyone knows the meaning of "Immoral", do tell me...

Golf Open

Love to watch it again next year...

It's just so GOOD.

My worry

I don't feel really comfortable these days, either physically or mentally. Something winding inside my head all the time, i have been thinking the way out. And I have been coughing all the time, my throat is burning.

Regarding the mental issue, there are 2 options.

Option 1: End it

Option 2: Tolerate

I can't end it cos there's no way to end it. I can't tolerate that as well, as it simply drive me crazy.

Goal?

When we get older and older, our goals change.

When I was 3, I wanted to be a policeman

When I was 8, I wanted to be a doctor

When I was 12, I wanted to be a lawyer

When I was 15, I wanted to be a businessman

When I was 18, I wanted to be a flight attendant

When I was 23, I wanted to be rich

When I was 25, i wanted to be powerful

When I was 26, I wanted to be famous

I am now 27, I want to be rich, powerful and famous

Prophecy

There were once 2 fortune tellers telling the exact prophecy to me 2 years ago. I didn't pay much attention at that time, but seemed it's becoming true.

I am kind of person who is easily affected or influenced by friend(s), and that's what I hate most. I am happy that I have got a lot of friends around me, but on the other hand, I hate myself for caring my friends so much, which make me feel very upset when something happened.

In the past 2 or 3 weeks, seemed having good fun but I was really stressed and worried, I don't know how to say but just seemed whenever going out these days, something happened, and I am / was really unhappy about that. It ruins not only my mood but also my relationship with my friend. Seriously, when I am really pissed off or disappointed, my feeling on one can fade really fast. Even one day time can kill the freindship of years, not exaggerating, but that's the case.

Sometimes, I feel stronger when I am on my own, maybe I rely on friends too much, and kind of becoming over-relying, that's what I think. That's not good, but I always have the tendency to be like that. I do think I rely too much, kind of losing my individuality.

I don't want the prophecy to come true, that will be disastrous.