Bad Feeling

I have a very very bad feeling arousing everyday, every single moment. The feeling is so bad that making me sick, really sick, I wanna puke all the time.

Headache, stomache are with me all the time, i can't concentrate on everything, I feel weak inside. I can't eat and sleep well, physically, I am sick as well.

I can't do anything at the moment, what I can do is wait and see.

I am Drunk

It's a good night last night, went to 2 birthday parties, one in McDonald's, one in Penthouse.

Have had good times in both parties.

Had had very bad time after that. I can't recall how much I drank last night, drank quite alot before going to Penthouse. And drinking quite alot in Oenthouse. I had no clue on what time I left, whether I said goodbye t my friends or not.

The next thing i remember was the guy sitting next to me in the minibus told the driver that I was very drunk and needed a plastic bag, I said I didn't need and opened the window and puked on the street while the minibus was still moving.

I got off in Mongkok and then slept at the lobby of a building, the security came out and asked me if I was OK, I probably said yes, and he offered me a stool to sit down, I puked again and again and again, no idea how many times I puked last night, 5 times, 10 times, I don't know.

I woke up at 5 something, then went to the minibus station to go back to Shatin, not sure if I paid, not sure how I got back to my flat.

Woke up at 2 something this afternoon, and found that my velvet jackey, my scarf, my jeans were all covered with my vomit, so disguisting.

Then I read the sms I sent to my friend last night, that's horrible, I think all the people in the minibus, on the street and my friend hate me so much. I feel ashame of my behavior last night.

Think it's time to settle down a bit, like what Shaun said.

Winter has come

Finally, winter has come.

Finally, all my heavy coats, cashmere jackets and sweaters can be worn.

Finally, my leather gloves can be showed.

Fianlly, my wool scarf can be seen.

Finally, my wool hat can be staged.

Finally, the letters have been sent.

I am OLD

I start feeling that I am getting old.

When I went out on last Wednesday night, I could feel I was dehydrated due to insufficient sleep.

Old people tend to sleep less, and I don't need to sleep that much these days.

I start feeling that I sound like old people, always reminding my friends to do this and that.

I realise that my memory is getting worse and worse, sign of getting old.

I start feeling that I am not that energetic than before, I am more lazy now.

I realise that I have no energy to meet new friends, lack of passion to entertain others.

Most of my friends around me are younger than me, making me feel older...

I am Happy

Oh you know what, I am very happy now.

Everything has been sorted out, I am so relieved now, thanks to Cristo, she's a really good advisor, I love her so much.

Wow... I am so Happy...

Upset

Pretty upset these 2 weeks, especially this week. Not a good start in 2007.

Seem like I am stuck, no way to step forward or step back. Quite confused.

If that's a game, I will start over again, but that just doesn't work in reality, life goes on and on, can never rewind or restart.

Seem I become the burden. I don't like this feeling.